Meditation and Psychedelics as a way to reach Nirvana

My journey into learning more about how to reach the Global Consciousness that some people call “God”, and eventually unite with it after death, continues. I’ve been reading a lot, during both night and day. I’ve learned a lot. And I continue to question a lot. Dogma is not something that I easily succumb to. I guess you can call me a non-religious theist.

So in my search, it seems that the white light of the Infinite Oneness that some psychedelic users report during their ego-death (a small fraction of them do usually), is the same “entity” of the God/Self as the one that the Yogis, Buddhists, and mystics of any religion report. While the details around the whole thing called “Reality” might have variations (e.g. how many realms exist, names of various angels/”Gods” etc), they all agree on what really matters: what God really is. And it’s definitely not an old guy with a beard sitting in the clouds judging our every move (we do that ourselves). God is Unconditional Love. Nothing more, or less.

So in my search on how to reach Enlightenment, I came across all these very interesting reports of DMT users, who have had a glimpse of true Enlightenment. From what I’ve read, I’d say that everyone’s life was transformed after that feeling of pure Love they experienced. Atheists became religious, and all they wanted to do is help others, share the DMT spice with others in order for them to experience, and live the gift called “life” in its fullest, and in the process, transform the world around them. So far, so good.


“DiMiTri and Spirit”, collage by me

But for many of these people, that is only “temporary” Enlightenment. After a few weeks or months, they fall back into their old ego-self. While better than before as individuals, they’re not as connected with the Source anymore. Some, might even start abusing the spice, in order to reach again this feeling of pure love. But to no avail, since DMT is extremely unpredictable and can land you to realms that you would never want to be in. DMT is essentially a hack of the universal system that binds all. You override your brain’s capacity to filter out information. But you have no control over it. It’s a crapshoot. So, you connect to its network, and then you’re hitting “I’m feeling lucky…”.

So I looked for alternatives to reach Nirvana (and stay there). The other alternative is following the life of a Yogi/Yogini. Becoming a monk, and meditating all day. And btw, Eastern-philosophy monks on LSD have verified that the psychedelic realms is what they also see when they deep-meditate (“so, what is new?”, one remarked). I’ve read various Yogi interviews/lectures/Q&As, and they all agree that the way to become one with God is to meditate. Meditate, until you self-realize that you’re God yourself. For most of these Yogis, to achieve that state, they had to meditate for ~40 years straight, and during their last phase, they had to meditate 20 hours a day, straight. Meditation could merge one’s Higher Self with the Source, and if the connection is strong, it supposedly can stay there after death for good.

Well, I have a problem with that idea. To me, it contradicts the whole idea of why we exist in the first place. We exist in order to experience, create, love. In fact, this is why the Universe started to begin with (according to all these philosophies, and psychedelic users’ realization). Our Universe and the various realms are simply a fun project of the Oneness, in order to achieve Awareness. To LIVE, through US. We’re droplets in an ocean, living under the illusion of separateness. So “God” gave itself a small push (Big Bang), and let evolution take its course.

So Yogis/monks tell me that in order to achieve Oneness with God, and stop the re-incarnation process, I have to start meditating 20 hours a day. But, that would mean that at best, only about 10000 people among the few billions that have ever walked the Earth have achieved permanent Enlightenment. If that.

And that thought is just ludicrous.

Think of it this way: what a Yogi meditates to achieve, is to become that what forms God: no ego, pure formless light. So the Yogi, takes God’s FORM and ATTRIBUTES. But does a Yogi become Unconditional Love? For that is the ESSENCE of God. This is the difference of becoming Gandhi’s Madame Tussaud’s wax statue, as opposed to actually becoming Gandhi.

Most Yogis will tell you that yes, they experience Unconditional Love through Enlightenment.

Really now?

So why did they just spent 40 years of their life living a parasitic life, often depending on the donations of the faithful? Wouldn’t it be better to meditate a few hours a week only, get a job, donate all the extra salary to the poor every month, and spend the rest of the free day physically helping their neighbors? Wouldn’t THAT be a true life of service? Wouldn’t THAT be Unconditional Love to your fellow man? Wouldn’t THAT be true EGO DEATH?

And if meditation is the “only” way to achieve Self-Realization as the Yogi claim, wouldn’t giving that up for the service of your community, would be the ultimate sacrifice? The sacrifice of your own soul’s salvation? And wouldn’t exactly THAT save you? Because THAT would be the Ultimate Expression of Unconditional Love?


“The Last Barrier (Godhead)”, collage by me

Instead, we have monks and Yogis spending countless hours doing NOTHING. Sure, they explore the various realms inside their mind, in hopes of one day reaching God. But they do NOTHING for what they were born alive to do: LIVE, CREATE, EXPERIENCE this realm. Instead, they seem to me as saying: “Oh, you need me to help you? Please give me 40 years to reach Enlightenment, and then I will“. What a load of selfish bull.

And don’t even let me touch on the subject of animals (which are also God), that simply can’t meditate (although they do perceive the Global Consciousness better than us humans — dogs & cats are known to be telepathic with their masters). Does that mean that animals (and microbes, and inanimate matter) can never reach the God within them? Wouldn’t that be a shame? And totally UNFAIR? Where is that touted Unconditional Love then?

So, I have a problem with this train of thought, of giving your life to the monastic practice (or to be permanently stoned, for that matter) in order to achieve something that you were self-removed from in the first place (and you never truly left in the first place). Becoming a yogi is an acceptable life path, since it’s an experience in itself. But it’s not the path to Nirvana. If God wanted us to spend a lifetime of trying to reach him, he would have given us an elevator. Or, 90% of the population would be monks, since it would be part of our cosmic programming. In reality, WE chose life, and to live this lie of separateness, in order to achieve awareness.

Old Zen saying: “Before Enlightenment: chop wood, carry water. After Enlightenment: chop wood, carry water.”

My theory is that after death, EVERYONE is achieving Nirvana/Salvation (good or bad person), but they still decide to come back to life in some form, because when alive, they become aware (which is the whole point). Any other explanation makes no sense to me, because preventing parts of Itself from becoming One again, is simply NOT Unconditional Love. Besides, we are already Divine, since we’re already God. Not to mention that “heaven” by definition can’t have conditions of entry; it’s open for all, or it’s not Heaven. Restriction is never an option because that would mean rejection, not unconditional love. So, especially people believe in Abrahamic religions, they need to stop victimize themselves. I would want nothing to do with a God who rejects itself like some kind of an EMO kid that self-harms. There are better ways to self-realize that it’s alive: LIFE itself.

Heck, if God wanted us to know that he even exists as One, he would have made it crystal clear, rather than creating this illusionary charade of a weekend project, called the physical Universe, which is a shadow of its true reality.

So, in my view, Manifested life (being aware) is death (separateness from the One), and death (becoming One) is unmanifested life (non-awareness of one’s self).

What God (us) wants, it seems to me, is to play the game: Live. Experience. Create. Love. And all the other good stuff, that everyone intrinsically know as good. In fact, many DMT users have received the Word directly: HAVE FUN. There are no mystical soul levels you have to achieve: all realms of Creation are equal in their divinity, since they’re all God — they simply operate with different laws of physics that might look like magic to us (so, no worship of angels/”gods”, please). And there is no judgement (except the one you apply yourself, during your life, and shortly after death). The meaning of life, is life. YOU chose to live. So just make the best out of it.

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Shade wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 1:41 AM PST:

Eugenia, how do you explain then–if we all pass through unconditional love, why some of us eventually still to be “bad/evil” during an upcoming “incarnation”? Does it mean that being “bad” is also an experience that is somehow useful or “interesting” to us?


Shade wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 1:43 AM PST:

sorry, I missed choose: why some of us eventually still choose to be “bad/evil”


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Eugenia wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 1:54 AM PST:

Yes, being “bad” is just one of the things we do to experience life. Some might become bad during an incarnation, some might not. Also, when we become part of the vast ocean of God after death, we’re not droplets anymore, so when we become droplets again for a new life, it doesn’t mean that we’re “exactly” the same droplet as before. We might have picked up, let’s say 25% of another droplet while separating again. I don’t see why a soul has to be exactly the same as before after a unification and separation. In fact, during the “recycling of souls” that some DMT users have experienced, it makes sense to mix and match, because that could enhance the overall experience.

Also, there is no Good and Evil in reality, it just IS. Through this illusionary conflict, God becomes aware. Action and reaction.

So, your question might then be, “then why not just be bad?”. Well, you could. But since we’re made in the image of God, which is love, we function better with love, than with hatred. Love is just more beneficial at the end. Besides, everyone judges himself after death, so if you feel guilty about what you did, you WILL experience your own hell before you eventually become part of the whole again.

That’s true “free will” to me. Not the usual “you’re free to do what you want, but then await judgement”, but rather “do whatever you want, without fear, experience”! It’s simply up to you to realize that you’re better off working with Good, because we’re programmed to want happiness (in fact, that’s all what we seek, it’s the No1 question people ask priests or gurus). And I never met an Evil person that was “happy”.


Shade wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 3:39 AM PST:

Thanks for elaboration on this, Eugenia! While I’m still not sure I can understand following that logic, why would any soul that ever experienced the whole love and “goodness” would eventually choose to experience “bad” and eventually torture others. But i guess it can be explained “to pick to be good after all” or similar.


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Eugenia wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 3:47 AM PST:

We forget when we enter this plane of existence. We have some basic, instinctive understanding still in us (e.g. searching for happiness, love, good vs bad etc), but then, we’re free to live. Some people turn up good, some people turn up bad. It’s not like they planned to become good or bad before they got re-incarnated. They simply chose their path while alive. It’s Free Will. It’s not a contest, or a test. It’s just life. That’s why life is a struggle. Because everyone’s free to pick their path, and usually paths get crossed.

I can’t be sure for this, but some times the wholesome of God might intervene in a bad situation, but it’s possibly a rare occasion to do so. As for prayer if it’s working or not, it’s possible that it does (I don’t know), but it possibly requires such a deep meditative state to reach God, AND it requires a situation that it’s not solvable by the individual’s sheer will (e.g. study hard to pass an exam), that most of the time, it would probably be a waste of time. Not sure though.


Brent Noorda wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 11:15 AM PST:

* about animals meditating: cats seem to meditate – what else could they be up to 23 hours per day staring into space? i suspect it makes them evil

* if monks are getting nothing done, at least they’re causing little harm. that’s better than most of us.

* do you have personal experience with DMT (LSD, etc…) to share with us?

* p.s. don’t let JBQ resolve any merge conflicts while he’s under the influence


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Eugenia wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 2:45 PM PST:

>* if monks are getting nothing done, at least they’re causing little harm. that’s better than most of us.

I’m not against meditation. I do it myself, an hour a day. What I don’t believe is that these people reach permanent nirvana, because there’s no such thing. It’s counter to God’s wish to live, so I have trouble believing that when they rejoin the ocean, somehow their droplets are cast aside from rebirth.

>* do you have personal experience with DMT (LSD, etc…) to share with us?

No. I’ve never done drugs, although DMT is the one psychedelic I’d try (even if it’s a crapshoot). But it’s very rare to find. The few times it’s sold in the streets, it’s not even DMT (or as pure as home-made stuff is). I was recently reading about a girl who bought “DMT” in the street corner, only to later describe something that amounts to a heroin high. Dangerous stuff.

>* p.s. don’t let JBQ resolve any merge conflicts while he’s under the influence

JBQ is 100% anti-drug. He has trouble swallowing all that stuff I’ve been telling him recently.


Brent Noorda wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 9:03 PM PST:

I’m a big fan of psychedelics, I really am, and think the world would be a whole lot better off if more people took them. Even so, I wouldn’t recommend anyone go directly from OFF to DMT. That would be like going from crawling to supersonic flying, without having ever ridden a fast bicycle. I’d advise starting with something more mild, like mushrooms, then maybe LSD, then DMT, and to do so in the company of someone with the experience to guide you along. DMT is a supersonic trip and breaking that sound barrier has its dangers.


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Eugenia wrote on June 17th, 2013 at 9:44 PM PST:

I find mushrooms interesting, but I don’t like LSD. DMT, as they say, is like loading the universe in a canon and shooting yourself in the head. hehe…


CRFilms wrote on June 21st, 2013 at 3:23 PM PST:

Comedian Joe Rogan has talked a lot about DMT. He’s also big on sensory deprivation tanks and how you can use them to have out of body experiences.

If you don’t want to take drugs, a flotation tank might be a safer way.


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Eugenia wrote on June 21st, 2013 at 3:25 PM PST:

I’m well aware of Rogan. But I don’t agree at all about sensory deprivation, I find them highly unhealthy. Drugs are more natural instead (heck, even food is a “drug”).


Vast_Majority wrote on June 24th, 2013 at 11:54 PM PST:

You said, “I find mushrooms interesting, but I don’t like LSD”. I am curious, why do you say you do not like LSD?


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Eugenia wrote on June 25th, 2013 at 5:11 AM PST:

I don’t like the fact that it’s so long-acting. I’m not interested in tripping balls for 12+ hours, and rarely breaking-through. Since I’m interested in psychedelics for religious purposes and not for getting stoned, I find LSD wanting. It’s easy to get the dosage wrong with it, it’s too long-active, and it rarely shows you anything of interest (compared to ayahuasca/DMT, and even mushrrooms, that is). So it’s relative. It shows you more than MDMA, for example, and more than weed, but less than DMT. I consider DMT the purest of them all entheogenics.


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